So I wake up this morning with a slightly sore throat. I take some cold medicine and it helps for most of the day. Then right after dinner I felt like someone slammed me with a sackful of bricks. Holy. Crap. I feel awful. Sore, swollen throat, congestion, headache, stopped up ears. And I'm going to Minneapolis tomorrow - on an airplane. Seriously?!?!
Jack's PET scan results were supposed to come back today but no one called. Not even to say "we don't know yet.". Just nothing. At least let us know that you're working on it. That it didn't just get pushed underneath a folder on your desk. We're all about to explode here. Seriously?!?!
I'm exhausted. Not just from the daily chores, but from the mental marathon I'm running. Did anyone ever find that switch that turns your brain off for a while? My family could use it right now. I have so many thoughts, some silly, but mostly heavy: cancer, my child, God, Jack, cancer, the dishwasher, our finances, our house, his job, my job, cancer, the future, the past, birthday cakes, my role in life, other people's children, relationships, cancer, laundry, TWINS!, Disney World, illness.... And the list just keeps on going. I need all of the little balls rolling around in my head to just stop. For a minute. Seriously.
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