Underachiever

Do you ever have those days when you feel like you're a complete and total underachiever? Today's that day for me. That feeling you get when you know you could be doing something much more "important" than what you're doing? Don't get me wrong - I 100% believe that me staying home with Caroline is the most important thing in the world or I wouldn't do it. And I love the kids I keep and I know their parents appreciate me. But it doesn't take a whole lot of brain power to keep kids all day. Patience? Yes. Strong stomach? Yes. But to be honest, a monkey could do what I do all day - in theory. I know there are those out there who say "I could never do what you do." But that's only because you don't like kids, not because you're incapable of keeping them safe all day. But really - from a strictly basic, functional standpoint, anyone could do my job. And I'm smarter than that. I'm not being boastful here, but I really am a rather intelligent human being. I was in the top 10% of my high school class, graduated magna cum laude from a university, and have had 2 professional careers (teaching and insurance) in my lifetime so far. So while I love being home with C and keeping other little ones, I feel like I'm not maximizing my potential. Now, I do go out and sell Aloette which helps me feel a little closer to my intelligence level because I'm at least talking to adults, but it's skin care and cosmetics. Remember that monkey? He could sell Aloette too, if he could talk fast enough. :-) And I don't always feel like this. Some days I feel like Superwoman because of all the stuff I have to do, and usually all at once. But there's days like today when I think I'm totally wasting my potential to be something that puts my God-given talents to better use. So for example - my Aloette manager sends our team a little "contest" that she's having for us. The contest is to sell the most Aloette in non-show sales by Friday, and you win one of our coveted products. So I decided I wanted to win. And in less than 6 hours, I'm in the lead on our team to win the prize. 6 hours. I haven't sold a stitch of Aloette in almost 2 weeks, and in 6 hours I've sold over $500. Can you say "underachiever"?? I can teach you if you'd like. So what's my deal? Something that's so easy to me, yet I sit around and waste how good I am at it. Why am I not giving Aloette my full effort? Or when is the day going to come when I find that thing that gives me the satisfaction that I think I'm looking for? Or maybe I'm just full of crap.... Any ideas???